life is never fair
just got away from another 'lecture' session. aku tetap dgn pendirian ku. its MY blog. i'll feel free to say what i want n put what i want. in case u can't see or u can't read (which i believe is not true), my subheading said: WHATEVER U SEE HERE,STAYS HERE!!. what is it that u don't understand from that?
if u're asking me to take away something from here, its just the same as u asking me to tear myself apart. cos whatever i say here is about myself n its TRUE. in here, Nadiah doesn't lie. its a reality u have to face. u are my one n only one i have, bloggie.
i dun care abt how others feel or think cos i dun think anybody has ever done that for me. apa punya masyarakat ni skrg?? what u see is what u perceive it to be, izzit? merepek ah...no wonder la ex-jailbirds now got no chance. i have experienced it before -not having given a 2nd chance. it really hurts. hate these kind of ppl. buat hidup org susah aje.
i have never seen myself as someone good. really. NEVER. no matter how much u ppl heap parises on me -no doubt i smile back n say thank you- deep in me, i know its not true. nothing beats being praised n encouraged by ur own parents. =( even sis agreed with me on this. all that is needed is a pat on the shoulder n the word "good" or "well done" each time we bring home a medal or even a cert. thats all! it won;t take u an hourto do that.dan bukannya HANYA that piece of paper with grade n numbers on it comes n that will only happen IF we pass (which is like once in a blue moon) haha. tk pernah aku merasai nya. sebalik nya, seyuman sinis yg kami terima. Cis!
the way they say it to me is as if they look down on me. been treated this way since small resulting in myself maybe having a low self-esteem. thats why i wasn't able to fulfill my role as a HC. i was always doubtimg my ownself.
if u're trying to say i'm making myself look bad by doing all this, then i must say : this is me. my pathetic life. Yes. i admit it.
nothing beats being praised n encouraged by ur own parents. =( research has shown that kids tend to believe what their parents say compared to what outsiders say.
my friends are all decent kind of friends. there's only two types of friends i have.
1) leaders (from other schools)
2) peeps affiliated to the SPF/NPCC
thats all. n mind u. all these peeps are high ranking peeps. haha. its not as if i'm trying to boast or cuma kwn dgn org2 yg bernama aja, but its just that i feel easy n safe with these ppl. not saying that my other frens are bad, taP its the outside friends we're talking abt here.
there's more i want to say actually. but i suddenly forgot. dunno y. facing this sicknes called "STML". short term memory loss. LOLx!...
**in case u guys think that nadiah is a good person - or a "role model"- think again. she's just a rotten apple! thats what they say
if u're asking me to take away something from here, its just the same as u asking me to tear myself apart. cos whatever i say here is about myself n its TRUE. in here, Nadiah doesn't lie. its a reality u have to face. u are my one n only one i have, bloggie.
i dun care abt how others feel or think cos i dun think anybody has ever done that for me. apa punya masyarakat ni skrg?? what u see is what u perceive it to be, izzit? merepek ah...no wonder la ex-jailbirds now got no chance. i have experienced it before -not having given a 2nd chance. it really hurts. hate these kind of ppl. buat hidup org susah aje.
i have never seen myself as someone good. really. NEVER. no matter how much u ppl heap parises on me -no doubt i smile back n say thank you- deep in me, i know its not true. nothing beats being praised n encouraged by ur own parents. =( even sis agreed with me on this. all that is needed is a pat on the shoulder n the word "good" or "well done" each time we bring home a medal or even a cert. thats all! it won;t take u an hourto do that.dan bukannya HANYA that piece of paper with grade n numbers on it comes n that will only happen IF we pass (which is like once in a blue moon) haha. tk pernah aku merasai nya. sebalik nya, seyuman sinis yg kami terima. Cis!
the way they say it to me is as if they look down on me. been treated this way since small resulting in myself maybe having a low self-esteem. thats why i wasn't able to fulfill my role as a HC. i was always doubtimg my ownself.
if u're trying to say i'm making myself look bad by doing all this, then i must say : this is me. my pathetic life. Yes. i admit it.
nothing beats being praised n encouraged by ur own parents. =( research has shown that kids tend to believe what their parents say compared to what outsiders say.
my friends are all decent kind of friends. there's only two types of friends i have.
1) leaders (from other schools)
2) peeps affiliated to the SPF/NPCC
thats all. n mind u. all these peeps are high ranking peeps. haha. its not as if i'm trying to boast or cuma kwn dgn org2 yg bernama aja, but its just that i feel easy n safe with these ppl. not saying that my other frens are bad, taP its the outside friends we're talking abt here.
there's more i want to say actually. but i suddenly forgot. dunno y. facing this sicknes called "STML". short term memory loss. LOLx!...
**in case u guys think that nadiah is a good person - or a "role model"- think again. she's just a rotten apple! thats what they say
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