argh
*sighs*
have not been updating lately
dont ask me why
i just update today
to tell u that i've not been my true self lately bloggie..

i dont know why
i'm low spirits, thats it!
my morale has been low
my self-esteem has been lowered
n i'm no longer my hyper self

its absolutely not due to the fasting month
its something that comes to haunt me
when i dont expect something to happen
n it happened
i feel so useless of myself

i just feel so dejected
n lethargic
whats wrong with me??
i gotta do lots n lots of reflection bout whats been happening
to me, myself n things around me

i dont even have the appetite to have my meal
despite surviving on air only thru e day
n what did i have when breaking fast?
a cup of tea, date, 2 sausages, n a forkfull of bee-hoon
thats all?? yeah

lesson ended great today
had fun besides learning physics
but that fun didnt last long
that miserable feeling engulfs me again when i board e bus home

at this bleakest period of my life,
i just want to be left alone
well, not totally alone
just dont chase after me
when u see me walking ahead
thanks
other than that
i'm still harmless n u can stick ard

things are just not going the way i wanted it to be

i get sad
just feel like crying
nowadays, i realise i get hurt easily
n my eyes get wet unknowingly

i'm just so disappointed in myself!

why am i not the way i want myself to be??!!!
WHY?!!

the odds seems to be against me
i guess its God
He's testing me

aaAaarrGghh!! help...
i'm drowning in my world of problems