ok. internet connection on my side has been real god damn slow. dont know why.
thats why i didnt blog over the weekend.
who so patient wanna wait with all the stupid pop-ups?

ok first of all, i got to sort out an issue thats been on my mind for these 4 days...
how? how? how? how? how? how?
yes or no?
want to join or not?
should i go for it or should i not?
theres so many questions with a 50-50 ans to it
it sucks man to b in this state

i even went to an extent of drawing out a table n jotting down
"Reasons why i should join the 71st batch of Cadet Inspectors n Reasons why i should not join"
sounds ridiculous but...yah, thats what i did
n its worst when u have it all balanced
argh!

after much in depth thoughts n consideration, i decided NOT to
now,that was my stand on Sat n it lasted for 2 and a half days??
after my paper at 0930 today i was so unlucky to bump into mr sani during his PE lesson at e carpark
he actually talked to huda during morn ay already but i wasnt there
n so he asked me why n i said i'm not willing to
partly bcos of e duration of e course
n he's surely disappointed ah
can see
he was really really hoping that one of us would kindly or willingly take up the challenge
but sadly, no one did
not even the chairperson, Huda
nor the vice-chairperson, Razali

the way he put it seems like in desperate need of a CI
he was like "please ah, please ah...give it a good thought. go back n talk to ur parents...if not next year how?"
n i was like "haiz..."

so here i am again
left hanging in mid air
just kill me, pls
why did such a girl by the name of Nadiah ever existed in WDL?
everybody seems to b asking her to take charge!
argh, enough la
lets just put it aside n concentrate on exams
so mr sani got to be patient for my decision ah

blab more later ah
gtg
bye




~kiss me when i cry, bless me when i die~