touched. faith is all i need

another week has come to an end. yep. four days of sch this week has driven me crazy. test n test n more tests. its like practically 24 7 study n test lorr. but good la. this will drive me to my room every night n study. good. now, i'm getting the momentum =))

its so good to have a maths teacher like mr choh. he's the best teacher u can ever have. really. he knows us very very very well. he knows whats going on our mind. he knows what we do when put into a particular situation. he knows how we feel. simply said, he's US.

its good that he understands the weak students like me n dian.i should salute him la. i passed my maths test the other day. its like the 1st time i passed lor. *i'm a maths idiot ok* (thats why i am in Band3. the worst maths class) but thanks to him, i improved. its not just an ordinary improvement ok where i'll kick a big fuss out of it.

i scored an E8 for my 1st test n for the 2nd test i got a B4 for it. wow!! its an improvement of 4 grades. an improvement of 1 grade means its an improvement of 5 marks. E8 to B4. 4 grade improvement = 20 marks improvement!

today, he came up to me n dian n kind of pet talk us. it really moved me when he said he still believes in me n dian getting an A1 for maths n that he's not going to give up on the 2 of us. the thing with us is we can't perform well during tests but yet we can do the hmks he gave us. we can get ans for his hmk right but somehow we can't do it for test.
"Its a confident issue,u see. Stop saying u cannot do it. The thing with u is, u don't have faith. U need to have faith in urself cos i am not giving up on the two of you. Don't put my hopes for the 2 of u down. I am not going to give up on the 2 of u until u urself say 'i give up'. That's when i cant help u anymore. So once again, trust me. I'm gonna turn the 2 of u into A1 n all u have to do is follow what i ask u to do. Follow it exactly. Don't try any other way or add more to it. Just follow. We CAN do it together"

N he walked away just like that. leaving us to ponder about it.i guess what he said is true. i followed what he said since early this term n my maths is improving. so happy sia. no words can explain how i felt when i scored a B4. Mr Choh is so encouraging. Plus, he's intelligent. He's taking his Masters for now, mind you. I really admire him for his intelligence. How i wish i could be as successful as him. **yea right. dream on!** lolx..

Just pour out any qns to him. Be it Chem, Phy, DnT or anything. He'll be able to explain it to you - even better than ur phy or chem teacher! he's so great. but too bad he is not allowed to teach us any other sub other than maths. actually, we're not even allowed to ask him. but of course, we do it under table lor. if our phy n chem teacher finds out, he'll be dead.

he'll always be the one to drive me to go for the better. " Its okay if u disappoint me, its okay if u can't ans to Mrs Yap. But its worst if u can't even ans to urself". Perfectly true. he talks sense, unlike other teachers who blabs just to make us feel scared.

but of course i dun like him, in fact, i hate him when he gives us tons of hmk. he gives us hmk like as if he's the only teacher teacing us n we dun haf hmk for other hmk. but then again, just follow what he asks us to do! i must be clever. clever in dividing my time. clever enuff to balance all subjects. its not all abt maths. **i gotta remember that**

okok. stop here 1st. got lots more to say. update more later.